You need to let it go. Really. You know pining after the Sexy Cowboy just makes you upset. You will never have him. He is elusive and never around when you want/need him.
What you need is Cowboy Joe! He is ready to lasso you with his rope of friendship! He is easy to find: www.hambostamps.com/southwest.htm
and he is so smart that he knows there are no sahuaro cactus in Monument Valley (a shout out to all his Arizona friends!).
What do you think? Give him a try, Mothermark!
He wore his best silver star for you and even looks like he has bathed in the last week, unlike some *other* cowboys we know.......