Did this for the theme challenge this week. Been thinking about this page since yesterday. It's a little plain but I'm really happy with how it turned out. TFL!
Journaling reads:
There is always a small amount of stress for me when you leave for work. Sometimes itÂ’s because you need to take 2+ flights to get to the ship. But then you call once you land and that stress leaves
Sometimes itÂ’s because itÂ’s a new ship in a new port for you. But then you email and I know youÂ’re ok and things are fine. Sometimes itÂ’s because youÂ’ll be gone for 6+ weeks at a time. But then you come home and are with us for the 6+ weeks, 24/7. Sometimes itÂ’s because IÂ’m left alone to raise two boys by myself. I stress because some days I donÂ’t think I do a good job and youÂ’re not here to tell me otherwise. I stress because our boys are at an age where they push the limits, and youÂ’re not here to help me. I stress because I want you to be proud of them and I feel like I let you down. ItÂ’s never easy but we manage and I think I do a pretty good job. But I also know I could do so much better with you here to help. Sometimes itÂ’s because our oldest pushes me to my limits and I feel I canÂ’t handle it. But then heÂ’ll come in bed with me and snuggle close and I know he still loves me, despite the battles we had that day.
And I stress because I donÂ’t want you to know, so you wonÂ’t worry about me, about us. I donÂ’t want you to think I canÂ’t handle things and I donÂ’t want you to be disappointed in me. I donÂ’t want our boys to hate me, as I sometimes think they do. I donÂ’t want to fail as a mother or as a wife. I know I can do so much better, so much more. There is always a small amount of stress, and it will always be there, even if you didnÂ’t do the work you do.
Date: Saturday, October 7, 2006 GMT Views: 717
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