What a rollercoaster Sammie.
Please try not to feel emotionally bad regarding anythign you do that makes the days easier, whether it be crying, staying in your PJs or watching Jerry Springer. Do what feels right at the moment.
Wish I could take some of that pain away from you.
Maybe you should keep a DR journal so when things do pile up at office appointments things don't slip through the cracks. I do that with my high risk pregnancy. Just too many thngs to try and remember when emotions run hi.
And I have to say you might feel alone at your pity party but believe me you have a house full of virtual guests. So where's the pinata? I heard there was going to be punch and pie