Sammie, we don't have a relationshi here but I see your sweet kitty avatar here and there. I have been reading your thread and keeping you in my thoughts. I have walked in the Avaon Walk for Breast Cancer when my son was just one. I will again after baby on the way is born. It would be an honor to have your name in the list of who I walk for.
Keep up the good fight. Use the support resources you have through your doctor, your community and here(we'll call that one Rainsong).
Thank you for being kind enough to share your story with us so we all may learn and be touched by you. You speak eloquently and heartfelt and that is a gift.
As others have said please feel free to pm me if you need and ear or shoulder. I am a SAHM show should be available most readily.
Hugs to you and your family.