Sue, the holiday weekends are difficult when everyone is doing family things.
I ached my way through several long weekends and holidays, anxious to get back to work.
Now I am beginning to just enjoy the time alone. I try to do one thing with ppl but sometimes that doesn't work. I try to catch up on things, make some good food for myself...heck, one Mother's Day I ran to the Seafood Center and bought myself a lobster! With buying for one, you can treat yourself once in a while.
I like to walk around Barnes and Nobles with a coffee, looking at books. Or stop at a store that I don't normally get a chance to puruse..Pier 1, World Market, etc...
The fourth weekend was extremely hard for me. I was alone and it was summer. I felt horrid. I sat and wallowed. There are still times when I hurt and ache too. So don't get me wrong. It is all a process I guess...and as Mary said below she still gets angry at times and she has remarried!
Give yourself time...be patient with yourself.