Hi Crafty Mel and welcome to our thread. I am so glad you found us and that you are feeling a bit better already. I also find the thought that without religion I have no moral compass abhorrent. In fact it can be argued that we don't need one and it is Christians that don't trust themselves to behave well on their own account. They can't tell right from wrong so have to have things listed for them like in the 10 commandments.
To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong. Joseph Chilton Pearce