Hotwheels- I agree with Ellen. I am so proud of you that you spoke with your father. I would speak to the nurses about your anxiety and fear. Often, the can help you deal with the issues. I am praying for you!
I am praying for all the families that need them.
Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement.